Alright, so I *might* look into 3D Design and Architecture University courses over the summer, since a few people keep telling me I should (lol, I do appreciate it honestly) A few friends even recommended that I apply for a job at Firaxis Games, and while that is such a nice thing to do, I am in NO WAY good enough for that yet. I've only just started to experiment with particle systems and animation in 3dsmax, so the prospect of applying to a Games company.. is just scary right now.

Although, It really does give me a warm, fuzzy feeling inside (lol, CHEESE FACTOR) to know that people think I'm good enough.

I talked to a 3D artist not so long ago who modelled Altulosso and a few other 3D designs for buildings going up in Cardiff City, and he thinks i'm good enough to take it further. So I dunno, I mean it's a huge 180 degree turn around career wise, even though architecture was something I originally intended to do straight out of School. I honestly don't know.

It's too early for a mid-life crisis, for a start I'm only 24! LOL

but either way, I will look for course *near* where I live and see how much more debt I'd get into, if I take it. Who knows. What do people think? :s

ALSO: [link] seriously, Chris Tucker is HILARIOUS. lol

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So apparently I should turn my 3D modelling and work into a career choice, say some. At least some friends think so. Not blowing my own trumpet or anything, but I think i'd probably make a decent 3d modeller for a games company BUT, I don't know if it's something that I'd WANT to do as a job.

For me, 3D stuff is just a bit of fun, something to challenge me a little and share it amongst the SC4 (sometimes) community. I know myself, and like a true Cancerian, I don't like being told what to make/do. lol

Speaking of which, according to wikipedia my "starsign" match is Pisces. Although I don't really believe in all that astrology crap, there have been a few Pisces that have had a rather big impact on my romantic/sex life! Oh, and one Leo

I'm off in a second to go watch a college production that my sister is performing in (drama) - Runs in the family, 2 of my cousins are trained musicians so must have the "gene" for artistry somewhere. Or it could just as easily be a massive coincidence. Either way, it's all good!

Finally came to a sort of understanding with someone, well, who I like(d) a fair bit. I hope now that there wont be any more bad feelings, coz I just don't want that, I'm all fizzled out with conflict. I just don't understand why the visits continued if you disliked me. Anyway, yeah. No more bad stuff.



I got a feeling this summer is going to be a great one. I'm thinking of going as "Robin Hood" for my Birthday (quarter of a century old, SHOCKING. But it's alright, I was born in 83, which as we all know is the coolest) on July 5th, in Cardiff. CHOICES CHOICES.

Will keep you all posted. lol!

Byeee!
x

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I know everyone has faults, we're people after all and we're more than capable of screwing up epically. but AM I THE ONLY ONE who wouldn't marry for money? Sometimes the level of selfishness in our society really pisses me off to the extent that I wish I were born elsewhere or later in time. Now, to iterate, nothing has personally happened to me to fuel this little rant, but there's something fundamentally rotten in our society to produce people with such obvious bad characteristics that they think is "acceptable".

We have magazines on bookshelves portraying women in a way that 99% of women will never ever aspire to and in many respects, has negative consequences in the form of anorexia and bullima. Or just self-esteem issues in general. Are photoshopped images of women, really important to our society, when you begin to factor in the consequences of it?

We have people using sex as a commodity because they often long for the attachment of someone they've lost, or denied themselves. Desperately trying to fill the void of that one special person, long since gone.

We have people marrying people for money and having "marital agreements", guaranteeing them 1 million each year.

We have people 'making' babies in violent households, or 'making' babies as a 'cure' for relationship troubles.

We have fathers being undermined to the point where we consider single-parent mothers as "okay". Fathers are JUST as important.

We have CHILDREN being indoctrinated into churches and religious schools, converting minds that were NOT given the chance to CHOOSE if that is what they want. Just because 'ma and 'da are Catholic, Christian, Muslim, whatever... Does not mean YOU should selfishly deny them the choice to decide if religion is for them when they are MATURE enough to decide. It's like throwing your child into Stalin-Propoganda school, because you're a communist. SORT IT OUT.

We have people killing others in the "name" of god, seriously, WTF?! If he/she/it does exist, which i doubt, would it/he/she REALLY appreciate you killing in its name!?

I'm tired of all this sexist bullshit, Men also have shit that they have to deal with too, it's not an easy ride for us either. I'm sick of sexism being used as a sort of one way street feminist wet dream.

That goes for racism too. It goes both ways.

Political Correctness, there's some good in this. But why DO I FEEL hesitant to refer to a friend of mine as "black"?! Even though she has expressly said, that calling me "white" wouldn't be offensive (which of course it isn't). We have become so terrified of racial slurs to the point of paranoia.

Why do some people expressly feel the need to violently attack single-sex couples in the street if their only 'crime' is holding hands? WTF?!

Some points I just had to speak about for some reason.
BTW, I've been watching the Christian and Oliver storyline in the German show
"Verbotene Liebe", apart from the Americanisation of it, I quite like it and Thore is fit (imho)

I am really enjoying the good weather, we've had recently.

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Not to become too depressing, but it would have been my Dad's birthday, June 5th. He passed away quickly when I was 16 years old, 7 years ago (February 2nd). I've decided to do something, deep down, I think I've been running away from, for quite sometime. I haven't been to his graveside since the funeral. For many reasons/excuses that I've tried to convince myself were true in whatever way. The reality, is that I didn't want to close the chapter on his existence. Call it denial if you want to, I'm none to sure. Only that it's something that I need to confront, i'm not a teenager anymore. I'm a man, now. One that I hope my dad would be proud of and to call his son. As I sit here with tears in my eyes, remembering his fading image from memory, all that truly remains the same are the feelings and the good times, everything else seems to wash away in a sea of time.
I don't know why I am writing this, or even for people to read, I just wanted to say, Dad, that I miss you very much and that I will ALWAYS love you with every passing day, and that who you were, helped shaped the man I am today. - Your Loving Son, Gareth xx

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ATM, Life is absolutely fantastic. I'm gearing up for my favourite season of all this year... SUMMER. The one time of the year where I am fully in my element (and the reason why my profile has been updated here to reflect my great mood). Already enjoying jogs alongside the waves with mates, BBQ's until the small hours and beach parties until tipsy. That's what life is all about, good friends and good company.

Recently started seeing a certain person, that really likes me for me . It's all good, nothing like a bit of summer love! I will try to keep this place more updated, I promise, (It's only taken me two years to actually get subscribed, but it's worth it) especially now that it's summertime (cue Mungo Jerry, anyone?) Please feel free to have a browse around the gallery (there might be something you like in there somewhere!) Alternatively/Additionally pull up a chair in the summer shack and share a cold bevvy with me. To my mates that visit here, thanks for ALL your great and wonderful support recently, I can't tell you how special you all are to me. You're amazing.

To Nathan, DO NOT come here any more, especially if it's going enable you to bitch about my work or my character elsewhere(emotive portraits, lady by the lake, Other public websites). What is the point? I'm hurt, you're hurt. Let's just not make it any more painful, yeah? As for "true artist", how and when have I ever described myself as such? I just upload things that I've done that interest me, if people like it, it's all good, if they don't too bad.

I'm not pretentious in the slightest and you know that, when we were speaking. If you think my stuff is "cliche", fine that's your opinion (albeit hypocritical since you commented positively) and you're of course entitled to it, but you categorically don't have the right to slander me or my work elsewhere, not after the disgusting way you treated me. Do you understand that?

You know, if you want to keep trying to punish someone who cared alot about you, in order to ease your confusion/denial or whatever it is that fuels your split personality that devastated my life for 2 months (not that you could give a shit), keep at it. See how good it makes you feel in the long run. I'm not sorry I liked the part of you, you hate. I never will. So, just go away and don't bother me again. If you think your justifications and explanations about how you've acted and how you treat others can be made alright and forgivable/understandable by "I was a bitch" or "The only thing I ever want.." is normal behaviour, you need to REALLY question your humanity, soul and conscience. I wish I had never ever, met you. It is all about control with you, but you can't control people's feelings as expertly as you repress yours. WAKE UP, learn some empathy.

Nothing directed at you anymore, nothing at me. Don't come looking for me anymore if it means you being horrible. I'm sorry for how things turned out, I truly am, I just wanted to be with you, but that's all I'm sorry for.

For the record you came here first, THEN I saw what you wrote. Goodbye Nate.

In other news: 2009 CMSU Reunion is on!! Kara, Cory, Kristen, Stephan.. who ever, I have to crash at yours. Is Stephan in California yet? (for some reason I find that similie REALLY cute).

London July Weekend: I cannot wait to finally meet up with you Micheal, it's going to be bodacious. Most Bodacious. Pip, of course. Seb the Essexy Boy and whoever else decides to come.

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